Unexpected Emotion

I cried... just before I left... I cried.

I couldn't help it, and now it's finally done. And I finally left for good... no more SL, no more CCA, no more PAM, RAC, RRL, CTA... no more Sun Life...

It didn't sink in until the very last minute. Until I was saying goodbye to Tine. She's been my partner at work for so long... and when I said goodbye to her it was only then that I realized what I was saying goodbye to... what I was leaving behind.

I miss it already. It's as if I want to take it back. But I know it's just the emotion talking. I know I'll be fine.

I just didn't think it would be this difficult. I really, really didn't.

All I know is it was time to say goodbye.

Mich has finally submitted her letter of resignation today.

I'm devastated. *sigh*

Although I knew it was going to happen sooner or later (since Jay-Ar is in Malaysia), I was hoping it was later rather than sooner... I don't want her to go, three weeks after Irene's last day at Sun Life.

Two of my closest friends at the office...leaving.

Anyway... Mich, Irene, SP and I went to Corregidor last Sunday-Monday. Louie and Apple were supposed to join us, but Louie was called to HK and Apple was, well, she was Apple so she flaked out at the last minute...again. But it's okay Apple, we forgive you.

Not much to do in Corregidor, or rather, we didn't do much. :P The heat was just unbearable! I wouldn't recommend going there in the summer, perhaps December-January is better. We did enjoy the tour though, and we took lots and lots of pictures. But by the end of the tour, we were just so fed up of the heat that when we got to the air-conditioned hotel room, we didn't want to come out.



We tried to go swimming but the pool was being cleaned and the beach just wasn't appealing to us... so we just wandered around, passing through the different buildings, and said a short prayer in the chapel we passed.

Afterwards, we headed out during the early evening on our own (we didn't join the tour anymore). We walked to the recreation area, it was already getting dark and the area was so quiet it was a bit creepy. But no one dared mention any ghosts or spirits...we still had an entire night to spend in the island. :)

We had a nice dinner of grilled chicken and pork, with Mich, Ayin and I taking turns at the videoke machine. We played billiards afterwards and headed back to the hotel.

Mich and I didn't get much sleep,just not used to the place I guess. My overactive imagination of ghosts and whatevers didn't help either. I was just glad I had my Ipod and my Heroes episodes to keep me company... or else I would have gone insane. I did manage to get some sleep in the early morning.

Our Monday activities consisted of a scheduled full-body massage. I love getting massages, and this was a good way to unwind after a tiring day. Since we couldn't take a bath after the massage, we couldn't go swimming, we couldn't go out (because it was hot!) so we just stayed in the room, talked about stuff and took more pictures. :)

When we got back to Harbor Square, Mich and I went up to the second floor to watch the sun set and then we all cooled down with a drink at Starbucks. My Corregidor trip was fun, and at least I got to spend time with my three friends who will all be leaving this April. I wish them all the best, and hopefully we'll see each other again soon. :)

I feel like I'm heading for a breakdown... :(

It's not that I'm pushing myself too hard, it's just that I'm thinking of way too many things all at the same time, trying to get so many things accomplished. Maybe it's just coincidence that so many things are happening at work, and I still have other stuff that I need to focus on. But I think what's draining me is this sadness I feel that soon, very soon, I'm going to be alone in Sun Life... and I don't really know how to handle it yet.

I'm just really tired today so I can't help but think about these things...Misery loves company I guess.

Last Thursday, my grandmother in Dagupan (dad's side) was rushed to the hospital due to a massive spike in blood pressure. She had cardiac arrest and was in a coma by that evening... by Saturday, she passed away.

Eternal rest grant unto her, O Lord.
And Let Perpetual Light shine upon her.
From the gates of hell
Deliver her soul, O Lord.
May she rest in peace.
Amen.

I played bowling today...

F*#%.

I swear to God, that game will never become one of my favorites...it always looks so easy, and I can't imagine anyone doing so badly in it. But I barely broke 50 on my first game...

Double F*#%.

Apologies for the obsceneties, I'm just really upset. The last time I played bowling was three years ago, and only my closest friends will know what other "incident" happened on that day. But if I remember correctly, I was averaging at least 80 a game. So, why, oh why am I so bad at this game?

Grrr...

I asked Tere to go bowling with me tomorrow, coz there is no way in hell I'm going back there without improving my score. Even if I have to sacrifice every free minute I have until that day.

Talk about fun eh?

I guess I'm like this coz I'm not on a "fun" team... not that they're bad or pressuring me or anything, there's just something about being the lowest scoring member on the team that strikes my nerve. My teammates are unvelievably good, most of them are serious bowlers. The other rookies on the team play decently too, which puts me in such a foul mood until I can do something about my score.

But I have to admit, I still had fun today. My teammates were incredibly supportive, and since this is a non-bearing game, no damage was done. So, I really, really have to improve before the next game, because I don't want to be the reason we lose... :(